Doing what you want to do does not mean asking others what they think you should do, and then doing that.
Doing what you want to do means sitting, with yourself, alone, alongside emotions you tend to avoid, resisting impulses to engage distractions, surrendering your way to the depths of your being.
Doing what you want to do only happens when you embrace silence with the intent to become still.
In stillness, there it is, what you want to do, just waiting to be noticed and expressed, without the need for permission, validation, or reassurance.
Oh, by the way, your worthiness is in that very same place.
"A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave." Mahatma Gandhi