...not engaging important work I care about.
Though, I wasn't always OK with being wrong.
For years, I struggled to express myself for fear of rejection, which would have served to reinforce every rejection I've previously encountered.
It was safer for me to remain passive than to expose myself to the criticism that may have followed the sharing of my point of view.
I wasn't demotivated or lacking discipline, I was scared to take a chance on myself and risk facing shame, abandonment or betrayal.
To protect me from judgment, I became a perfectionist and vowed only to say and do things that would limit the possibility of objection.
As a result, I became crippled with fear and found myself unable to do just about anything that required putting myself out there.
Constantly anticipating the worst-case scenario, I became plagued with anxiety, and as the days, weeks, months and years went by without any significant change, I became depressed too.
I was living hell on earth.
On December 8th, 2014 I saw Brene Brown's Power of Vulnerability TED talk, which was a catalyst in improving my quality of life.
She's helped me understand that courageous work is possible only to the extent at which I'm willing to become vulnerable.
Additionally, through the discovery of my True Self, I've learned how to separate painful, previous experiences from my identity and live out of a wildly fresh and invigorating consciousness.
These experiences have all led to the willingness to embrace work I care about and risk being wrong because my heart is always right.
"Courage is a heart word. The root of the word courage is cor - the Latin word for heart. In one of it's earliest forms, the word courage meant to speak one's mind by telling all one's heart." Brene Brown